my slightly off life

DISCLAIMER

This blog has resurfaced recently, and for some reason I remembered the e-mail and password. So I wanted to give anyone who stumbles upon this an update on my life.

This is the funniest, most nostalgic, and embarrassing thing I the honor of writing. It's so funny to read all the things I was obsessed about at the age of 15, maybe 16 in later entries. I am now 22-years-old and I no longer worry obsessively about boys, or my weight or how "crappy" my life is.

I wish I could talk to the girl that I was and shake her and tell her to stop being such an emo dork and just enjoy your life. It's funny, because looking back now I remember having so much fun in high school. I had four really close friends that meant a lot to me and we were always having a good time. It's kind of sad to think that I am forever immortalized on the web as some pathetic girl who even wished she had (and I quote) "diabetes so that [she] would have to stay on a diet or else [she] would die."

She seems like such a stranger. I remember having insecurities but I just can't believe how blatantly I put them out there for the whole world to see. Even if the world never saw it, all my friends passed around their blogs. I don't remember the reason, but I think it was supposed to be cool and a way to let everyone know how we really felt without bringing everyone down in social situations. Either way, I was an embarrassing addition to our group if you would look solely at these entries. I had very few enlightening things to say, and to be honest I was quite selfish in my view of the world.

Now-a-days, I'm happy to say that I'm in a relationship with a great guy, who loves me for all my quirks, my crazy antics, my opinions, and most of all for how weird I am. We started talking to each other a little over two years ago and have been dating for a little over a year. Also I've been kissed many, many times since my fears of never being kissed were expressed in these entries. I've also graduated from college with an awesome GPA and a great internship at the Make-A-Wish Foundation under my belt.

Those are just a few of the reasons I would like to meet that silly, insecure, naive, stupidly jealous and sometimes embarrassingly awkward girl and tell her everything would work itself out and it just takes time.

PS: I'm happy to say that I've kept in touch with Annie, Steph, and Lacey through all these years so even though I shared my crazy insecurities they stuck by me and I can't thank them enough for putting up with me :D .