my slightly off life

CONSIDER THE MOMENT THE TIME AND PLACE RIGHT NOW....FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I THINK IVE GOT THINGS FIGURED OUT

grrrrr. once again i was asked to help people on their love life problems great it's not like i dont have a love life but i have to help my friends out with theirs. great. it just makes me feel like such a loser when they're like what should i do cassie? should i tell them how i feel or should i just let them go, because im pretty sure they like someone else not me...blah. i was told today that i always put myself down but i truely dont think i do, there are so many times where i think wow i look pretty today guys would have to be crazy not to like me and i know that sounds conceited but im just building up confidence so i can feel sexy because i think the sexiest thing is confidence. but after like five minutes with any one of my gorgeous friends im like oops maybe not maybe if i looked like her i would be more lovable or hmm. man i can name numerous times when i thought these guys like me 'cause they were nice to me and hanging out with me but only when a certain friend was around but still i thoug wow they like me! and then they ask out my one friend on a date. and i feel like a major loser. screwy. i just hate that i mean i really do think im conceited cuz i try to believe that every guy that will be nice to me likes me but i think i do that so if one of them actually asks me out i could just say yes i was right even if they just like me as a friend or like my friend as it so often turns out to be. i just hate how annie can just be so comfotable where ever she is! i mean i would kill to be able to have that confidence i mean i try to act like her try to just be comfortable but nope doesnt happen grrrr...i mean jamie, we met him at the same time, said the same things, but once again almost immediately i could tell he chose her as a friend not me. im the odd one no one likes im the weird best friend, i can just see people thinking oh that's so nice they're being friends with her...aw! i just know thats what theyre saying grrr i just wish i could have the problem of 5 guys wanting me and haveing to choose cuz theyre all just so nice its so unfair. welcome to life

I appreciate but cant accept this letters that were sealed with your last breath