my slightly off life

sometimes i feel like this major loser you know? i mean im well liked by most people i hope but sometimes my friends tell me these stories about themselves and what happens to the and it's just like wow that'll never happen to me. Ive always wanted to be one of those people who you just meet and instantly like but Im not at all I give the worst first impressions, and 2nd, 3rd and 4th ones too. I just wish i could be a person that someone would just look at and say she's looks cool, maybe i should get to know her try to be her friend but that doesnt happen. I dont know why it doesnt though. I mean all my friends say im this great person that im pretty and fun to be around but i never get the compliments they receive especially annie i mean she's wonderful, all she has to do is tell a story and guys will look at her in such a way that they would do anything for her in that moment and not think twice about it. it seems that all the people that i go to for friendship are so unlike me, annie is closer to what i am than erin was though i mean annie and i even that somethings that we do that we thought no one else does but in the romantic department both of them are sooo much more advanced than i am. I mean i freak if a guy likes me, I dont know what im gonna do when a guy kisses me, yes i admit it I have never been kissed, that is how much of a loser i am, im 15 years old and never been kissed but it's not that bad i mean im not like oh poor me im never gonna be kissed ever, because thats not going to happen i mean i am only 15 it's not like im 75 or anything and this isnt the 15th century where girls were married and had kids at my age i mean i dont even plan to get married until im like 30 maybe a little earlier if i find the right guy and right now the aplicants are few and far between. Im a happy single. im a very independant person, one of my friends nai told me something that my other friend rian said about me they were talking about people who are in realtionships and some who arent or something and nai told me that he said that boys my age are looking for someone who they can comfort who they can hold, and then he brought up me and he said that 'cassie for instance she's this wonderful person, but she's independant so guys are scared of her' or something like that god i hope not i dont want to be scaring guys away! ahhh. oh yeah im such a bitch, im so mean to dom and the thing is i dont care, which is worse that ignoring him i just dont want him, he's immature, and im independant and well my signs clash so im an odd person im a water and a fire sigh how clashing is that...hmm im tired and ive written alot that ive wanted to write so im gonna go with one last word of advice...on the 13th monday of the year the world is going to end...shave your head!!!